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LIFE SUCK!!!

2009-09-22T07:11:00.000-07:00

LIFE HAS BEEN A BITCH!!!

hey readers, you know i never have tot life would be a bitch this few month have been thinkin alot much lately, its fuck up i tell u.. i seriously have no idea. wat am i suppose to do now.. Im totally LOST in this life.. u know shouldnt have done shit. nothing would be the same without her.. i feel totally lost.. i lost everything i had.. now that im alone.. i feel totally zero nothing.. i have no idea wat im doing... this life is being a bitch.. cant stand it no more!!!!

If u dont need me just tell ill take a step back, sometimes u dont msg or call me, u have change or maybe i did change u? i have no idea?? if u really need me im all ours but why cant u just be so loving and caring like we use too.. u use to be so romantic at time. seens all this had happen u never did never.. sometime i feel u dont give a shit abt wat i do or maybe how i feel. but i feel deeply hurt where im lost too.. !!

i know u have lots of things in ur mind.. but then im not just askin u to do all does shit, its for better and for me and for u to be happy.. i know u miss the times, i missed it too.. the first time we met, u were so sweet.. u were like a rose tht has not been open up yet.. you were so comfortable till i had u, u open up like a reed rose sweet awesume.. romantic.. omg! i cant stop thinkin.. but how ever i know its not gonna happen again.. im just having this feeling

U know if u could just forget abt everything and be wat we wanted ill be the most awesume person on earth.. i msg u and called u but u could nt ans my calls.. i dont know how am i or wat am i suppose to do now.. with all this..

u know how i felt when everything mess up i cried in front of u.. and u were just like ok.. tht's all u didnt had a comfort for me.. so from then on i known tht i didnt had a life for u.. i know everything is gonna turn wrong and it really did, it really did.. i swear..! u know wat i just need is u to be by my side every single thing i do.. u would just be beside me sayin things lke i be there for u, and ur'll just gimme a hug and say i love u so much and i wont let u down.. tht's all i need seriously!

and u should know i always scold and talk back to u, its cause im just jealous.. emotion take control of me when im down, and i start having stupid tot's.. come on if u said u know me long. u should know wat i hate and like.. right???????

IF I DID HURT U IN ANYWAY PLS FORGIVE ME

I WONT MAKE A SINGLE MISTAKE NEXT TIME
PLS GIMME A SECOND CHANCE I WONT WASTE IT

UR SOMEONE I REALLY LOVE

AND NO ONE ESLE

U SHOULDNT HAVE LEAVE ME ALONE

I WAS DEPRESS

U ARE ALL I HAVE NOW

DONT LEAVE ME ALONE

IT HURTS

BADLY

GOD KNOW HOW I FELT

AND ILYSM!!

UR MY EVERYTHING!

PLS HAVE FAITH

IM TRYIN TO BE WAT U WANTED!

P.S UR MY FAVORITE SOMEONE IN THERE

BEGGIN FOR WAT I NEED....

%$##^%Out wiTh frIendS on a SaturdAy beFore Raye!&*$%$

2009-09-19T21:14:00.001-07:00

LEONARD

CHILDHOOD FRIENDS

NorthPoINt

so here i go.. its a saturday morning didnt know wat to do, cause wasnt going anywhere. then at around 4 some idiot friends of mine called ask me to head down to north point to chill out... so i did.. got change and when out of my place headed down to north point.. some friend of mine had problem with his girl friend. he was freakin cryin.. i couldnt say anything cause he didnt llisten to me..so slack till abt 11 plus.. then when home, but i did have fun takin pictures of my friend and myself hahha! *crazy* cause i was freakin bored..

anyway, i was pissed, cause i suppose to fetch tht someone from work but then i ended up not, so i said cause, everything was fine till i find out she headed home alone.. i was freakin piss cause i have no heart to let u head home alone.. but i felt really bad and started to think alot, dont wanna say much.. call tht person but didnt ans.. so everything was fine.. i just felt tht i was outside the box on the time of point.. couldnt love be better then this. couldnt love just let us be together, why did things happen at the wrong time. why did i even do this mistake. why cant we turn back time. why is life always unfair. why is people always hating us for being together. why does people love us being together. why do we need each another so badly. why is love so strong between us! if ur readin this just ans me the ques tht is on my blog..and u know how much ily! dont ever leave a single touch out of me..! ilysm i hope u know who u are.. and now here is some pictures i took!

%$$#%Great Day!%$$#$%

2009-09-14T09:54:00.000-07:00

$%$%#%AWESUME^%&^$%

hello readers, how should i start tsk.. oh okay took MC today cause i woke up late didnt wanna like go to work so malas... hahha, so was out the whole day after ploy when to north point to makan with my friend. hahha! fuckin awesume! then waalked around enjoyed my day.. reallI! hhaha!

so here goes for tht someone, fakin means "fuckin" i meant to do tht stupid.. im not like tht someone act smart but brain still 17.. its ok for me to act like a kid although im fuckin 20, cause im always like tht, life for me its all abt ur insides.. i dont care how i appear outside to other people.. im not like tht someone with me also wanna shy cause i was so kiddy.. wat do people think let them be luh.. not ur life wat! its mine wat, so wtf u care. if my spellin is wrong why do u have to correct it stupid, i hate to entertain this type of people cause it is like she's beinng kiddy doing all this, write abt people on her blog.. and tht slut was sayin i scare tsktsk u still dont knw the real shawn.. i think ur mixxing with the wrong person woman! u wanna call who & wat so ever to drop me go ahead. but pls dont do it in yishun after tht ur'll go back in a mess.. dont dont seriously.. even not in tamp wait everything messes.. errr dont wanna see blood all over yishun and tamp. pls.. hhahhha! so as i was sayin if u have a problem with everything i write here look for me on ur own... wat u wanna do go and do i cant be bothered with u, ur just nth to me not even my friend so go delete my number dont call me.. i wont ans ur phone cause im changin my number.. ur disturbin my life. im happy now ur annoying.. u know u sound like a dog barkin in me ears.. ERR! u want ur things back wait luh stupid! did i even ask fr my things back no i didnt,and stop makin so much noise ur just hurtin my ear. so dont disturb me im a busy person who hates people barking my ears..! gee i didnt know i would meet this type of people in this world.. now i know why ur ex boyfriend beat u all the time cause ur fuckin brotherin his life! hhaha!OMG! wat a girl! cool shit luh.. haha! good for u! smetimes i think she's so contemptible!really...! OMG! so i have to go now, i shall write soon toodles!! :P

%@&^%@^PIckIn HEr Up$%$&$%

2009-09-13T01:46:00.000-07:00

BABYGIRL FOR 3 YEARS!

AND FOR EVERY YEAR!

%#$@$LIFE$#$^%

hello readers, im back.. hhahha! yesterday when out to town had fun with elf. my BMT friend. omg! miss him so much cause it was long.. hugged him tight2 like gay but then it was alright.. we slept, eat and shit at the same toilet before.. we are like brothers.. i never told i would meet him again cause it was long and his in a diff camp as me.

so to go on, ill just say thanks to keke cause she help me on my blog, keke is a long time frens but now, lot of things happened to our group all when out of it... but she was super awesume she help me and teach me at the same time and now i know how to do my blog.. hhaha! faking awesume.. new things must learn mah..! SO CHINESE ERR!

so going to meet ex-girlfriend soon, fetch her from work.. u know i couldnt stop thinkin abt the past cause it will never leave my brain, its cause we were in a long relationship and we suddenly broke up and its cause of the *bitch* dont wanna say name uh.. if not i wouldnt be regetting my life now, ex-girlfriend can be totally awesume cause its like she always makes me smile.. and when she smiles she just brighten up my day.. i have a picture of her i shall put it in later.. i wish i could turn back time, and should have not done tht,is cause of me u were in a mess, and now u cant get out of it, but how ever i will be there when ur getting out of it,i know ur the one i need right now, god knows tht too..i really loved her.. its been a few month tht this has been happening.. and i really cant see u get hurt, i feel farkin bad.. how much i try i still cant seems to get u in my life... but ill keep tryin till i get u back, i still be there for u when u need me so badly... hope god really put us together prayin real hard cause every night i take my picture frame of u and me and put it beside me.. and cry before i sleep.. ILYSM! IRAH! pls BE MINE AND Pls BE BACK IN THE VIERRA'S FAMILY!!! 200606!

!@@#@#gOINg OUt of here!@!@$@@

2009-09-11T21:04:00.000-07:00

STAUrDAY AFTERNOON

hey guys im back, going out later, cant stay at home on a saturday, very stressful. cause i dont stay at home on a week end.. it feels like a freakin jail when u fakin stay at home on a nice saturday afternoon. !

not meetin ex-girlfriend today cause she's workin and after tht she's going home.. totally cool with tht!

And yea going out with my new friend and my new bestie. IFAH ADAMS. totally awesume! cant wait.. hahha!

so was askin ifah to help me on my blog but then it doesnt seems to wrk cause she also blur! hhahha! BUT thanks ifah.. tht nyonya very funny, hahhha! u know why i call her nyonya is cause she call me apek.. hahha! giler kan.. but her voice really like nyonya u guys must hear hahha! wait i see if i can get a picture of her she looks nyonya too.. hahhha! SORRY IFAH! but she totally cool made my day in the morning! thanks!! :P XOXOXOXOXOXO! hug tighttight!

so heading out soon.. ill write in at night.. have to go now toodles!!

2009-09-11T10:44:00.000-07:00

@$^#^@%BACK AGAIN!#%@!%@

hello everyone im back, met ex girlfriend tht's now had an awesume time, we when out with my mummy and ex girlfriend so happy till her boyfie keep on callin her and askin her to come back.. was totally pissed.. seriously.. his so freakin controlling.. i dont understand.. i see ex girlfriend very pityful got to like fakin listen everything he say and stuff.. i really pity her. if its nt cause of me breakin up with her i dont think anything like tht would happen.. she's having a hard time now.. i really understand how she feels.. was not even mad at her but was mad at her boyfie.. u couldnt do this to a girl.. she needs her freedom tooo.. heart really hurts when i saw she was cryin..

wat can i say.. i told her i was sorry for wat i have done to her but then.. nth seems to be right.. so to carry on the story, when to makan and stuff no need details malas.. hhahha! work was always fake up.. cause people sgt already mah.. tsktsk! i heard i was posted to somewhere far. was pissed again.. from my place to the freakin camp is like freakin far.. confirm gi keje lambt..hee like how i always go to camp when i was at sembawang always late.. heeee! sleep late kan.. haha!

cant sleep oso have to do type something on blog haha! first time kan using this shit.. still cant get an idea how am i going to do the fakin layout??? mcm maner kan.. CAN SOMEONE LIKE HELP ME KE TEACH ME KE! hahahA! guess ill just go to sleep, to sian.. haha! ill write again tml.. toodles! sweet dream bed!

and for my ex- girlfriend if u ever read this, im really sorry abt everything it was my fault u got into this mess and no matter wat happens im always by urside.. god knows we are meant to be just tht people wont let us! P.S ilysm!! deepdeep down! she knows!!

%#%@%!SIGNIN OF AT 0200am 120909@^%@%^@

2009-09-11T04:45:00.000-07:00

@#$%..New Blog..#$%^

!@$..110909..@$@

hello people i just made a blog cause was like totally bored didnt know wat else to do. so yea i thought making a blog was freakin easy but NO! it wasnt man.. I dont know how girl do it but they are really good in it. and i was tryin to like change my layout and it didnt happen cause i was so bodoh. i dont know shit about this have to let someone help me.. errr! was piss cause didnt know how to do, felt like throwin my lappy out f my freakin window! ERRR! this is like my first time doing this.. hope people just reads it.. great so for today i wont write much cause i dont have to say anything... DOTX! tryin to find out how to change the layout.. ill write in soon.. after i change my layout.. toodles!!!